Maybe this is because you already are a woman and struggling with this is part of the labor that patriarchy prescribes you.
I love being trans. I love myself and all my sisters who I’ve come in contact with. Our stories are borderline epic, let’s not lie. We are beautiful. We are incredible. I believe we’re love, and I believe we are helping this world.
Speaking my pain is speaking my love is speaking my vulnerability. I’m alive, and it’s vulnerable. I feel very much like crying. And I love all of it. I love my pain, my struggles, and all of my life experiences. I love them, and what I’m learning is that I always have. I re-member now that I have always felt and been love in every moment. It’s as real as any pain, suffering, or struggle. Love is all around me and in me - in my tears that still won’t come, in every wound. In my experience of every person I’ve ever met. I love them, I love me, and I love life. Not just the good parts. I love all of it.
It’s funny how long it took me to admit that to myself. When that is my cure.
A bridge seemingly burning today in my family due to my being a trans woman. I would ask what to do when someone says “Don’t call me ever again,” but I think it is self-explanatory.
I used to cower at the fear of abandonment, but I am beginning to love the freedom that comes with showing people where the door is. That feels like healing.
More from a progressing prude.
I was on the train yesterday looking at people and thinking about how I really don’t understand what it’s like to be normal. As a trans woman not yet on HRT, I have no idea how cis people feel. Absolutely none. It’s very odd to think about. Even though they have problems, they all seem so present in themselves. I have met some trans women on HRT who look present in this way too. I’ve been watching people all my life. It seems cis people were just born with this, and they have no idea it is anything significant. Um, yes. Feeling present with your basic physical state changes everything. Not liking some things about your body doesn’t negate that.
save your breath i never was one!!!!!!!!!